Day 5

These few days have been rough. Sunday (day..3?) was, literally, very shit bad, terrible. I got stressed over a paper I had almost forgot I had to give in and..pulled until my eyes were red. But that was it, just one bad episode. Yesterday and today (day 5 already!) I haven't pulled once! Super super proud of myself, if I may say so. To help, I've written out a list of things that relax me and I imagine doing them: swimming, running, playing with my dogs, dancing with my mates..and it reaaally helps. I would recommend it to anyone.
Other things that have helped me stop these last few days:
- Speaking with another trich-blogger whose blog, strength and willpower have me mesmerised! ( http://lastlash.blogspot.com - you won't regret it!)
- A lovely little spot (or bug bite or similar) that has appeared on my lower eyelid - it hurts like hell but the pain has sure stopped me pulling!

I am determined to make it happen. I don't want to have to wear makeup to hide it for the rest of my life.
A couple of hours ago, my old flatmate called to tell me he was coming round to pick up some stuff he had left behind - I was in the shower at the time and the first thing I had to do after I got out was go put some goddamn eyeliner on so that he didn't come round and see my eyes how they really our. It sucks. Showering, swimming... I live in Spain for God's sake! That implies beach + pool  + water fights...In which I have to worry about my eyeliner.
But that won't be the case this summer, no way José! :)


Never give up.
G xx

Day 2

So far, writing about my experience with trich has been an amazing help.
I have also just joined an online trich support group for teenagers, which so far seems brilliant also: it gives me the chance to speak to other people in the same situation as me, and it's really helpful.

Today I made the effort to smile, to relax. Everything but pull. I didn't pull out of boredom throughout the 3hour law seminar I had to sit through this morning. I didn't pull out of stress when I lost the key for my bike chain. I laughed it off, I smiled. I believe smiling is really important; a good thing about smiling is that is takes attention away from your lashes/brows/head.

Smile. Let everyone know that today you're a lot stronger than you were yesterday.

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Here's my first progress pic. I'm wearing black eyeliner and a couple of coats of mascara, and, dare I say it, my eyes have seen worse days. But that doesn't matter - from now on it's only gonna get better.

G xx