Almost every day I'm pulling 2/3 lashes..you can hardly tell, because the ones I'm pulling are the longest ones that would have come out anyway (or atleast that's what I'm telling myself) but it can't go on!
I'm currently working on finding out why I was able to not pull all summer and now I'm back at college at my flat it's all wrong! Maybe it's the stress of a big city - I don't know. But I'm pulling. In class, right now. On the toilet even. The other day, I found myself running while I was trying to set up the running app on my mobile phone while in the middle of the park.
So I've made myself a list. And I swear to God I'll keep up with it.
- Blog at least once a week
- Speak more regularly to other trichsters
- Re-start my "non-pull bracelet" ( I was so proud of it last time! )
- Ask my new flatmate, who is studying psychology, about what he knows and if he can help
- Keep nails short, to make it harder to pull
- STOP FEELING. When I feel I pull, so that's a no-no
In two weeks, if I keep to my promise and don't pull, I've promised to buy myself a new eyeliner and mascara! It's been ages since I've bought myself eye-makeup (I have a little hangup about it) so if when I accomplish that I promise some pics!
Keep strong xxxx
G.
Phrase of the week:
"I walk a mile in your shoes...and now I'm a mile away, and I've got your shoes!" - Kings of Leon, Comeback story. (Loving this song! I'm gonna make my own comeback!)
I hate the relapses! Mine vary from hair pulling to eyelashes to skin picking, and they're all always terrible. Keep going! Never give up.
ReplyDeleteSince it seems when you wear makeup, you like to wear it fairly frequently, and then pull the mascara off, you should try switching to a washable mascara instead of waterproof (I hate washable mascara, but sometimes when I'm getting impulses to pull, it's better.) Also, make sure you get a good makeup remover, so everything melts off of your eyes in one or two swipes, whether it's waterproof or washable. If you can't get any good makeup remover, at least use baby oil or vaseline. Ohhh... and for myself, I can't use a mascara that clumps or flakes, or I will probably end up pulling.
Hi I just found your blog and it's so nice to know that there are so many people out there that too pull out their eyelashes. I'm trying to once and for all overcome trich but every new bright idea that I have in order to fight he urge to pull out an eyelash seems to backfire. It's so bad now and extremely obvious. I will try to avoid sitting next to someone in the fear that they will turn around and see my severe lack of eyelashes. I have a boyfriend now as well and as much as I like him I fear that he'll notice that I have such little eyelashes and be freaked out. As I'm sure you are aware I am new to this whole thing and have actually never said in front of people that I pull out my eyelashes so I suppose this is a step in the right direction. Thank you for this blog. You have no idea how grateful I am to see that I am not the only one xxx
ReplyDeleteHi Gina,
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, could that be related to your studies? Are they stressful? Trich and other BFRBs are very common among students.
And just a small piece of advice: try not to force yourself to stop trich, its utterly impossible sometimes, actually it may even make it worse... Will power just doesn't work with this disorder unfortunately. Its even more intrinsic than an addiction.