Day 1 - again.

I can't remember when I started blogging. I do know, though, that around mid May last year, thanks to places like this, I was able to stop. So now it's my job to come back.
To write every day, or every couple of days, how I'm doing.
At the moment, I have an eczema on my left eye, which, annoying as it sounds, stops me touching that eye at all.
I'm going to a big music festival in three weeks, so I really hope to have stopped and have some beautiful lashes for then - and forever!

Sorry for the quite post, it's quite late here in Spain
G
xxxxx

Comeback story of a lifetime-

I don't know what's got over me. After proving that I could do it..I've given in!
Almost every day I'm pulling 2/3 lashes..you can hardly tell, because the ones I'm pulling are the longest ones that would have come out anyway (or atleast that's what I'm telling myself) but it can't go on!

I'm currently working on finding out why I was able to not pull all summer and now I'm back at college at my flat it's all wrong! Maybe it's the stress of a big city - I don't know. But I'm pulling. In class, right now. On the toilet even. The other day, I found myself running while I was trying to set up the running app on my mobile phone while in the middle of the park.

So I've made myself a list. And I swear to God I'll keep up with it.

• Blog at least once a week
• Speak more regularly to other trichsters
• Re-start my "non-pull bracelet" ( I was so proud of it last time! )
• Ask my new flatmate, who is studying psychology, about what he knows and if he can help
• Keep nails short, to make it harder to pull
• STOP FEELING. When I feel I pull, so that's a no-no

In two weeks, if I keep to my promise and don't pull, I've promised to buy myself a new eyeliner and mascara! It's been ages since I've bought myself eye-makeup (I have a little hangup about it) so if when I accomplish that I promise some pics!

Keep strong xxxx

G.

Phrase of the week:

"I walk a mile in your shoes...and now I'm a mile away, and I've got your shoes!" - Kings of Leon, Comeback story. (Loving this song! I'm gonna make my own comeback!)

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack.

I feel bad. I stopped using this blog when I stopped pulling, around three months ago. Not writing sort of helped me forget I had ever had trich, that my eyelashes were different to other people's. But it all went wrong.

After about 3/4 months pull free...I have started again. And I don't know why. It isn't visible yet, it's just a small patch on my right eye. But today alone I've pulled 6 lashes out, and that isn't a good number.
I'm back now, and I'm back for good. Hopefully the pull free bracelet will work..or something similar. Or maybe even a point system? I'm not sure.

For the time being, I'm gonna have to give up my love of wearing mascara (to show off the beautiful long lashes I grew) because I just end up pulling that off and pulling lashes with it.
I'm gonna try and stay strong, you do too xxxx
Gina.

Just a month ago in Barcelona - look at those lashes! :)

summer is nearly here!

Hi guys! I am so so soooooooooooooo sorry for not writing anything for a while. I've been so occupied with exams and other responsabilities it's untrue! But my beloved summer is almost here: I've finished all my exams and once I pass my driving exam (it's this tuesday, wish me luck!) I'll be freeeeeeeeee!

Amazingly, throughout all the stress that finals bring, I have spent 37 whole frickin' days without pulling! 37! I've never felt better about myself. My pull-free bracelet is still a broken fake Pandora chain with a couple of charms and lots of ring pulls on it, but it's having its effect on me!
Last week I decided to tell another friend about my trich and about how I was recovering, just to get it out bit by bit (she's the artist that drew the amazing picture that is my header) while out partying and she made me feel really good about myself!

Here's a picture of me with Nati last week, to make up for the fact that I can't find my camera to take progress pictures haha :) (sorry for the strange face)

I'm so proud that I don't have to wear eyeliner anymore for fear of looking weird, and sooner or later I believe I'll learn to live without mascara!

And to end, a bundle of questions I've been dying to ask and I hope one of my readers may know!
1) A good water-proof mascara recommended for trichsters? They are really limited here and I'd love to get myself a worthy one for this summer!
2) How does trich mix with wearing contacts? I'm going to start for the first time this summer and I'm really worried that having my hands near my eyes for other purposes may make me wanna pull.
3) Sunbathing and eyelashes: now I have a nearly full set of lashes I want to keep them looking good. I plan to sunbathe a lot this summer because I'm currently as pale as a ghost, but I don't want my lashes to look any clearer...any tips?

Love to all my readers, never ever give up!
G xxxxxxx


PS: If you have a moment, please visit sarahpulls.blogspot.com: it's a blog belonging to the mum of Sarah, another trichster, and it's really worth a visit. Thank you :)

Don't stress the small stuff

I am so sorry for not blogging much but I really don't have the time at the moment (side-effects of leaving all my studying till the day before finals, yey!).

Amazingly, even though I have been mega-stressed these past few weeks, I have spent THREE WHOLE MEGA AWESOME WEEKS without pulling my lashes. Not one! I still feel them non-stop and have to resort to rubbing the spot of the eyelash I want to pull when I have super strong urges, but I've done it!
Bit by bit I've done it.

I've tried to cut sugar out of my diet: not viable when you're surviving on energy drinks to stay awake, but I survive. And I've also started doing exercise when I'm really stressed. I'm an athlete, so it works, but for when I don't have the time or the space, just working out for 10/15 minutes really changes your aspect and you forget completely about that urge to pull you had! (Search p4p or Blogilates on Youtube, I especially love this last channel). Aaaand I am constantly painting my nails: not a cheap habit but it makes it impossible to pull for the 5 minutes after painting them so it's a pretty good quick-fix!

Gotta go, my Law for Journalists final awaits me!
Gina xxxxxx


PS:Will upload a progress picture soon (I feel so bad for the rubbish post, I really do)

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful!

It's not easy. None of this is easy. I'm still feeling my lashes with my fingertips, sitting on my hands, painting my nails, slathering vaseline on my eyelids. I've nearly slipped up more than once. But for now, I'm doing it. And for some strange reason, each day that passes is easier. I feel like I've got so far, I can't give up now. I'm still MEGA stressed and coping with finals, with moving out of my student flat and ten million other things.

It has been a fortnight since I last pulled. And I'm happier than ever.
I feel like I am really getting over it for once. Like I'm closer to being able to tell my friends and family about how I got over it.I want to create a charity, an organization for people with trich in Spain. Because there is nothing: absolutely nada. I want to do it, get rid of it, and help other people to do so.

Step by step

I should really be studying right now. And I mean really. I have my first final tomorrow and it is so so so important, but I just had to relax and blog right now. I can't change rooms, I have no fidget toys, and I'm stuck studying in this library until my eyes close. So I'm gonna do the only I can do right now: write.

Today is my 12th day pull-free. And I am so proud about it I have told everyone that knows that I have trich (no more than 6 people really, quite sad) how well I'm doing. Amazingly it is all thanks to my pull-free bracelet. I have to keep it at home because as you may have read, it's a broken charm bracelet and I, with my student economy, can't afford anything else nor can be bothered to continue my search for a bracelet with a clasp. They all seem to have disappeared. For now I'm using little charms I have, but seeing as tomorrow I will have run out, I'm planning on using ring pulls, which I have been collecting for about 3-4 years now and I own a couple of hundred/thousand/a lot of.
Not wearing it helps in a way because I'm not reminded of my trich every time I look at my wrist.


Anyway, back to studying for me!


Loveyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa xxxxxxx